Life, Love and Regrets

My niece just returned my university's-day textbooks that she borrowed years ago, guess she was just spring cleaning her room... argh! I've been procratinating to do mine. Anyway, just as I was flipping thru' the books, (checking if there's any old forgotten love notes i left in there... haha as if!) I found this slip of paper that had several poems that I copied from somewhere.... it brings back memories

FORGET HIM!

Forget his name, forget his face

Forget his kiss and warm embrace

Forget the love you once knew

Remember he has get someone new

Forget him when you hear his song

Forget you cry all night long

Forget how close you once were

For now he got her

Forget his smile, forget his grin

Forget the dimple on his chin

Forget the way he held you tight

Remember he was hers tonight

Forget the time that goes by fast

Forget the love that now had past

Forget he said, "I'll leave you never"

Remember he said, "Goodbye Forever"

WHEN YOU ARE OLD AND GREY

Since I still appreciate you dear

Let's find love while we may

Cause I know I'll hate you dear

When you are old and grey

So say you love me here and now

I'll make the most of that

Say you love me and trust me

For I know you'll disgust me

When you're old and getting fat

Your teeth will start to go dear

Your waist will start to spread

In twenty years or so dear

I'll wish that you were dead

I'll never love you then at all

The way I do today

So please remember

When I leave in December

I told you so in May

COAT

Sometimes I have wanted to throw you off like a heavy coat

Sometimes I have said you would not let me breathe and move

But now that I am free to choose light clothes or none at all

I feel the cold, and all the time I think how warm it used to be...

TRUE OR BLUE

I do not have a clue

On what I should do

Should I be blue

Or should I be true

If blue I choose

Will I be bright

Who will I lose?

Who will I bite?

If truth overcomes me

Am I on my own?

Will other support me?

Or will friendship be torn?

SOMETHING TURNS TO NOTHING

Something turns to nothing

And nothing makes you cry

There was something in that something

It's gone and you wonder why...

Life can't be lived on one thing

For that something could be that something

So wipe those tears of nothing

For tomorrow there will be that something.

Haha...try to make sense of the last poem. All I can deduct that you'll lose something one of these days - its part of life- but don't lose hope, for tomorrow is a new day with more opportunity and promises ^_^

Doa Ku

Tuhanku
Seandainya telah engkau catatkan
Dia menjadi milik ku
Tercipta buat ku
Dekatkan lah dirinya dengan diri ku.

Tuhanku
Jika dia ditakdirkan bukan milik ku
Tidak tercipta buat ku
Bawalah dia jauh dari pandangan ku
Lapuk dari ingatan ku
Peliharalah diri ku daripada rasa kecewa
Berilah aku kekuatan
Meski pun tanpa diri nya
Engkau gantikanlah yang telah hilang
Tumbuhkanlah yang telah patah
Walaupun tiada yang sama dengan diri nya
Ku pohon dan ku rayu pada Mu yang satu
Engkau hapuskanlah perasaan ini
Seandainya dia tidak mencintai ku.

Tetapi Tuhan ku
Seandainya dia ditakdirkan untuk ku
Ku pohon agar Engkau sentiasa memperkuatkan cinta nya
Sebagaimana kuatnya aku mencintainya.

Amin.

In response to my friend's latest post ^_^ This is a poem I copied from my fren back in high school which she got from a magazine. I like it. It was simple and straightforward, if he/she was not meant for you; move on - lots of fish in the sea.

But I wonder...what if; he loves her and she loves him but circumstances/events are not in favour of them being together? Should they hold on tight and fight? Or just let go........?

The Road Not Taken

The Road Not Taken
A Poem by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

I like poem. It was so vague that it can be intrepreted into many meanings. Heard a snippet of this poem in the tv show 'Are You Smarter Than 5th Grader?' and was interested to know more. I think its the last paragraph that pique my interest "Two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by". Lives are all about choices and oppurtunity cost (keluar economic ku tarus). In this poem the writer dared to be different and choose the path that seldom people had chosen.

My intrepretation for the third paragraph, he said he would try the other path (the other choice) another time but though deep inside he knows there's no turning back. So the poem in one hand told us to be brave and take the risk, not just following the herd, or go with the flow. In a deeper level, you might do a u-turn and take the other option, but its just won't be the same as it would have been if you had taken it the first time around. It does not moralize about the choice you made, it simply says that choice is inevitable but you never know what your choice will mean until you have lived it.

Foxy Lady (3.5)

No man is an island, entire of itself
every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main
if a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were,
as well as if a manor of thy friends or of thine own were
any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind
and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls
it tolls for thee.
-- John Donne

A drama that questioned "Does age matters?" Well, it might not matter to you but it matters to everyone else. Yeah...yeah, you'll say its your life, butt-off!!! But like the poem above suggest, 'no man is an island', we live in a community- unless you're willing to live in the middle of nowhere and shun everyone... Hmmm, if I could get things by ordering online and having it delivered up to my doorstep - but I'll have to pay the telephone bills, the water bills, the electricity and the gas ( I still wanna live in a lap of luxury, even if I could live without human company); I still have to meet people to install them first, and hey how do I get the money?? Farming? Haha...laughably impossible!

Back to the drama, it potrays the life of a 33 year old single female reporter of an 'adult' magazine, Go Byeong Hee (Go Hyun Jung). One day she found out she had benign uterine tumor, the same day she found out that her so-called-soulmate is gay. She drowns her sorrrow and worries by getting drunk in some out of town location. She called up her best friend Park Seung Hye (Ahn Sun Young) to get her, but she sends her younger brother Park Chul Su (Chun Jung Myung) instead.

Chul Su ,24 years old, just got back home after wandering around the world for 1-2 years, he's an excellent car mechanic, a handy man to fix thing around the house, but has no ambition whatsoever -he reasoned that way, he won't fail at anything. (Hmmm...that brought to mind the quotes, "You are a failure if onl you have fail to try" and " Failure to plan is planning to fail"). Anyway, the night he went to pick up Byeong Hee, they ended up had to stay in a motel and the drunken Byeong Hee 'attacks' him. He pushed her away several times, but what he was supposed to do when she keep on kissing him, he's only a man afterall - buaya mana yang tolak bangkai? (But to compare a carcass with a female, Grrrrr!)

Byeong Hee didnt remember everything that happened that night, so she suggest they'll just erase it from their memory altogether. Chul Su held the same opinion at first, then a good marriage prospect for Byeong Hee made an appearance and he cant ignore his heart any longer...

SPOILER!!!!

It turns out that he was in love with Byeong Hee all along, but because of the age difference and Byeong Hee always treated him as her own younger brother, he decided to go away, hoping that by the time he return she'll be married and have a family, and he'll get over her.... Yeah, a few years is acceptable but 9 years???? As she said when he return (while smackng his butt repeatedly), her baby had grown up to be a man, she used to change his diapers... then madly he grabs her hand and put it on his crotch, this is where you really wanna feel right? he yells, wakaka...the shocked looks on her face!

What I don't understand is the relief and happiness Chul So shows when Byeong Hee told him she wasnt pregnant...shouldnt he be dissapointed if he's really in love with her, he could use the baby as an excuse to marry her...

Another sideline story is Byeong Hee's younger sister, Go Jun Hee (Kim Eun Joo), a model. One modelling show, she met Park Byeong Gak aka Bulldog (Son Hyeon Joo) a President of a luxury brand. After that he pulls his string making her modeling career comes to a halt. He make a proposal to her, to become her 'sponsor' as long as she do as she was told, he'll make a successful model. He had no intention to make her his mistress, he just want to see her everyday because she was a dead-ringer to his deceased wife. Even though he is ignorant and crude, the spoiled and selfish Jun Hee really fall him, but the problem is he's way to old for her. I think their story is more cuter than Byeong Hee and Chul So ^_^

Anyway, if the female is older than the male; people will look badly more on the female - cradle snatcher! If the male is way older than the female; people still look more negatively on the female - gold-digger! Isnt this world just fair? People stereotyping other people easily(...hehe myself included, just cant help it!) but hey you just can't please everybody, so just please yourselves lah...be damned what other people thinks (easy to say ^_^). I like this description in koreanmovie.com at the start of the review of this drama.

"Most people probably have experienced at one time or another, searching for a pencil all over their house, only to discover they had been holding it in their hand all the while. This drama is about the process of realizing that the pencil is in your hands.This drama wants to talk about the simple truth that both love and happiness are found right beside you, right in your heart. It wants to say that if you discard your superficial defenses, just a little, you too can become happy".

Go Hyun Jung (DOB: 2 Mac 1971)

Chun Jung Myung (DOB: 29 Nov 1980)

Kim Eun Joo (DOB: 31 Aug 1985)

Soo Hyeon Joo (DOB: 24 Jun 1965)

Jo Yeon Woo (DOB: 30 May 1973)

{Byeon Hee's other love interest; a doctor, kind and thoughtful. Isn't she a bbabo? }